THE MOST SELFISH MAN ALIVE:defeated.

i did ask you to stop there and wait for me.
i did ask you to come back with me.
and, for sure, i DEFINITELY didn't want you to leave.

but it becoming clear now.
you don't want me no more.
and so i leave.
out of your world.


hope you'll be happy.

doa orang bodoh.

you know what.
i really envy this guy.
he's on your mind forever long after he's gone.
with only the good things that he did for you that stuck in your head.
man, he even change the most important thing for you.


i think.
it's really unfair.
i can't believe he even exist.
he's way too good.
maybe he's the best damn thing that happened to you

while me.

i'm a jerk.
i always did the BAD things to you.
apologize and did it again had became my cycle.
and i know.
i maybe the worst thing that happened to you.

i have come this far.
and i can't pick you up from his world.
i'm just too stupid just to have that thought.

GOD.
please help me.
i really want to be with this girl.
and i know, i can't make her love me as she love him.
but i can't be more thankful to YOU.
if she's with me and she can laughing together with me.
if she's with me and she can share her thoughts with me.
if she's with me and she can shed her tears with me.
and if she's with me and she can share 0.0001% of her love for him and give it to me.

AMIN.

fling? love?

hey you. yea, you.

just so you know.

i still have this butterflies inside my stomach when i think of you.

i never meant to hurt you.

i know i'm wrong.
i know just a simple "sorry" can not HEAL you.
But i just want you to know this.
I feel happy just to be by your side.
I feel happy when you are here with me.
And i can't hope anything more than that.
But if you're not happy with that.
And if you still got that anger with me.
Just tell me when i should leave.

Because there's nothing more important than to see you happy.
Because my world rotate around you.
Because you mean the world to me.
Because you bring happiness to me.
BECAUSE YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING.

and i will do anything for that. for YOU.

review movie #1

A Moment To Remember
"the saddest romantic drama ever."
How far will you go for your girl?
Will you die for her?

Well i don't exactly remember the tag line. But more or less it's like that. So let's begin.

This movie start with not-so-understandable scene, where there's a girl crying with holding something like train ticket (hey, I'm not so sure, cause' it's in korean haha.. but that scene is in train station by the way). She's like waiting for someone but that someone is never come.

As the scene continue she walk to what you call a convenience store where she (oh yaa. by the way her name is Kim Soo-Jin) meet a guy(and the guy name is Choi Chol-Soo) there in a very strange way. And it turns out that the guy she meet is her dad employee (sooo movie. haha). As the time goes by, they get to know each other very well and they were married. I like this part of movie, they get to know each other well. And that's really sweet and intimate. And funny too, in some way. And some surprise waiting you there when the father recognize the guy that her daughter dating.

The problem is after they're married, this girl (27-year-old girl) is developing the infamous ALZHEIMER disease (yes guys, that alzheimer that usually attack the elderly). And Her husband is an impossibly tough man-among-men, who now must deal with the heartrending plight of his honey's health going to Hell. Get your toilet paper tissue ready girl, this will be stirring some emotion. And the story continues, with more and more problem to come. Including the man that happens to be her ex-love.

So my conclusion is, A Moment to Remember is engaging enough for what it is. The courtship of the two photogenic stars is straight out of a screenwriting handbook, and the characters are both cinema-worthy and incredibly contrived. Man this movie is reaaaaallly TEARJERKING kinda movie. Damn. All in all, this is a really great movie so i'll recommend you to watch it. Oh. By the way. I gave it 9 out of 10 for this movie.

But ladies, get this straight: guys like Choi Chol-Soo DO NOT exist in real life. So instead of getting him, you will only getting some kind of guy like me. hahaha.

wish #2

adidas superstar 35th anniversary
"Top Secret - Anniversary Series # 35"

i know I'm asking way too much and it's out of my league. but. can't help it. maaaan. if someone walk into me and give that thing. i'll marry him/her. i don't care. hahaha.

damn.

three is really a crowd.

tae.

Lika-liku KP di Garuda :

*Suatu hari, dua minggu yang lalu :

Teman 1: "dut, Rabu kita ke Jakarta yaa.."

si gendut: "haa? ngapain nyet?"

Teman 2: "gini DUUUUDE (tai lo fi.. hahaha) kita katanya harus security clearance blah blah blah (sorry bgt fi, ga gw dengerin waktu itu. hihi)

si gendut: "hooo. okay. yauda, kita berangkat selasa sore aja ya. gimana?"

semua: "okeee!"

*Selasa sore

Teman 3 : "dut, gw baru selese ni ujiannya, abis ini gw kerumah lo deh."

Si gendut: "ha? iya.. iya.. oke bid."

*Setelah si Teman 3 dan teman-teman si gendut yang lain datang. Melepas kepergian kita. taeah

si gendut: "bid, si dugem mane yeee?"

Teman 3: "hee. mane gw tauu. tadi gw telfon katanya di kampus. dia masi mau balikin mobil dulu katanya."

si gendut: "!@#$%^&"

*15 menit kemudian, setelah teman-teman yang melepas kepergian kita pergi duluan. Si gendut uda jongkok di jalan terus berdiri terus jongkok direpeat ampe si temen dua dateng.

si gendut: "biiid. si dugem mana siih?"

Teman 3: "yauda gw telfon dulu deh."

*Menelefon si dugem

Teman 3: "eh fi. dimane lo gw bilaaang. gaserius kali kau."

Teman 2: "eh ini bid. jadi gw tadi ke mcD dulu. lapeeer. terus gw mesti nuker mobil ke nardo dulu. terus sekarang lagi di cisitu. maceet bgt biid."

Teman 3 & si gendut yang mendengar: "!@#$!@#$%"

*Setelah jongkok dan berdiri beberapa kali kemudian
mohon dibaca dengan lagu-lagu yang sering diputar di klub terdekat karena percayalah, beginilah bunyi suara yang ada kalo mobil punya dia dateng.

Teman 2 & Teman di mobilnya: "eh maaf ya booo. blah blah blah." dengan sejuta alasannya. hahahaha.

si gendut & Teman 3 : "ah udahlah. cao yuks."

*singkat cerita. nyampe di Jakarta.

*Hari Rabunyaaaa.

Perjalanan dimulai dengan keberangkatan yang terlalu dini dari rumah si gendut.
Si gendut bersama si Teman 3 berangkat dari rumah jam 6 pagi.
Alhasil meskipun tidak tahu menahu tentang jalan, Alhamdulillah sampai juga jam 7 pagi. Kaya anak es-de baru masuk sekolah. hahaha.

*Setelah semua orang datang, jam 8 di ruang tunggu

Teman 4 : "Eh mana sih si Pak L ituu?"

Teman 3 (nada semangat) : "Ada deh, pokoknya yang botak pake antiiing gitu deh"

Semua: "iiih."

*Setelah menunggu..... si Pak L itu dateng juga. dengan ciri-ciri seperti diatas. botak, item, serem terus pake anting gituu. pokoknya aiiiih ga nahaaaan. yaaa. tipe-tipe kesukaannya Mas *piiiip* laaah. hahahaha. eh ngmng2 kalo gay tuh antingnya dimana sih? hehe.

Pak L: "Yaudah. kalian sekarang serahkan aja foto ama fotokopi KTM dan KSM. Karena orang yang mau security clearance nya ga ada, jadi kalian bisa pulang sekarang aja. Ntar Senen tanggal 4 kalian balik untuk security clearance dan penempatan blah blah blah"

Semua (dalam hati mengutuk si bapak) : " dasar hoomoooo"

*fast forward to June 4th

*di ruangan yang sama setelah menunggu agak lama

Pak L: "Oke. kalian ikut saya, untuk security clearance"

Deg-degan. dikirain periksa seluruh badan dan standar keamanan lainnya

*di ruangan untuk security clearance bersama bapak-bapak kepala security yang si gendut lupa namanya.

Pak entah siapa namanya: "oke. perkenalkan nama saya.... (fill with whatever u like) sekarang kita akan mengadakan security clearance blah blah blah."

*Kemudian si bapak membagikan kertas yang berisi pertanyaan tentang biodata yang harus diisi. Dan tebak apaaaaaaa.

Pak entah siapa namanya: "yak. kalo uda ada yang selesai, bisa dikasi ke saya dengan membawa foto dan fotokopi KTM dan KTP dan setelah itu bisa menyelesaikan security clearance ini."

Siaaaaaal. ternyata Security Clearance tuh terjemahan bebasnya kira-kira "MENGISI BIODATA" kalo di Garuda. anjrrriiiit. kenapa ga dari kemaren2 aja nyeeed ngisinya.

*Singkat cerita, setelah mendapat surat jalan dan ID Card, si gendut dan Teman 2-Teman 7 melintasi Jakarta dengan bermacet-macet menuju Kantor Pusat Garuda dengan harapan tinggi sesampainya disana langsung dibriefing untuk bekerja.

*Di Garuda

Satpam: "Maaf dek. Mau kemana ya?

Teman 5 (nada bicara dengan percaya diri tinggi): "Oh, ini pak. Kami dari ITB mau bertemu dengan blahblahblah. Ini ada surat jalannya blahblahblah"

Satpam (nada datar): "Garuda lagi istirahat. adek silahkan menunggu atau makan siang dulu sampai jam 1 kembali lagi kesini"

Semua:"!@#$%"

*Setelah jam 1

Satpam : "adek, kalo mau ketemu ama yang mengurusi ini silahkan ke lt.11 ketemu ibu blahblahblah"

*di lt. 11 (suasana masi gelap dan semua orang belum pulang dari istirahat).

*30 MENIT KEMUDIAN (IYA, 30 MENIT SAUDARA-SAUDARA) datanglah seorang ibu-ibu centil dengan rambut berwarna merah yang sasakannya ngalahin Marge Simpson yang di The Simpsons memencet tombol yang ada di pintu(apa ya namanya) untuk membuka pintu kantor(nya?)

ibu-ibu centil alias IIC (mengeluh sendiri dengan backsound suara pencetan-pencetan tombol pintu yang bunyinya "pip pip pip" sangat annoying): "Aduuuuuuuuh. ini ko ga bisa ya."

masih si IIC (ga nyerah. masih dengan pip pip pip): "aduuuh ini kenapa sih pintunya. aaaah. ko ga bisa seeeeh."

IIC (mulai mencoba membuka pintu dengan paksa, digoyang-goyang) : "AAARGH. ini kenapa sih pintuuuu."

*Si IIC kebelakang nyari orang sana terus mengadu

IIC: "Pak, ini kenapa ya pintunya? ko akyu ga bisa buka yaa? kan kodenya uda bener. Aaah. bapak tolong bukain doonk. akyu kan mau nyasak rambyut biar tambah okee." and so on and so on

Si bapak-bapak malang (memencet 4 tombol di pintu dan terbuka dengan mudahnya) : "silahkan buu."

IIC (ga mau keliatan salah) : "iih padahal udah akyu masukin bener loh kodenya. blablabla"

Si bapak-bapak malang (udah mau nyumpel mulutnya pake kaen pel di sebelahnya" : "iya bu iya bu."

*Pada akhirnya si IIC tadi keluar lagi dari pintu tersebut. Jadi ga jelas jg ngapain dia try hard abis buat buka pintu itu.

*Ampir setengah jam dari waktu yang tadi dateng ibu-ibu bawa kantong mukena

Ibu-ibu kantong mukena (IIKM) : "Ini dari mana ya?"

Teman 6 (dengan template ocehan buat KP) : "Kami dari jurusan TI-ITB mau ngomongin tentang KP blablabla."

IIKM: "Ooh yauda. kalian tulis aja nama kalian disini (dibelakang surat jalan). ntar kalian kami hubungi lagi kalo ada tempat"

Teman 6 (mukanya shock berat): "Loh bu, kami kira kami disini langsung di briefing untuk kerja besoknya."

IIKM: "Ooh, ngga. Karena saya mesti cari dulu kalian mau ditempatkan dimana dan kalian juga harus menunggu blablabla"

Semua (shock) : "Jadi kapan bu kami ada kepastiannya?"

IIKM : "MUDAH-MUDAHAN (asli... masi jaman kata mudah-mudahan jaman sekarang) SECEPATNYA (gaada tanggal yang pasti juga)"

Semua (udah males & shock) : "Ja...di.. maksud ibu, kami belom bisa kerja sekarang dan ga tentu kapan kerjanya?"

IIKM (dengan tainya): "iya."

*Semua kejadian di atas dilakukan untuk mendapatkan sesuatu di hari yang terakhir. Namun sampe sekarang kita masi ga jelas juntrungannya mau ditempatin dimana sama si Garuda itu.

Jadi izinkanlah gw sekarang mengatakan

GARUDA ANJING.
GARUDA TAI.
GARUDA BABI.
GARUDA SAMPAH.
GARUDA BUSUK.

wish list no.1

Air Jordan I "Beginning Moments" double pack

Somebody. Puh-lease. buy me these shoes. i want them. definitely my wish list for xmas. hahaha.

Amazing pt. 1

She's got a smile that would make the most senile
Annoying old man bite his tongue
(I'm not done)
She's got eyes comparable to sunrise
And it doesn't stop there
(Man i swear)
She's got porcelain skin of course she's a ten
And now she's even got her own song
(But movin' on)
She's got the cutest laugh i ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours
(Not sayin' one word)
And i would still cherish every moment
And when i start to build my future she's the main component
Call it dumb call it luck call it love or whatever you call it but
Everywhere i go i keep her picture in my wallet like you

'Cupids Chokehold'
Gym Class Heroes ft. Pete Stump

it's amazing how one verse of a song can match your feeling perfectly. apa dicocok-cocokin aja ya? hahaha. pusiing. haaa, those good ol' days.

Tes-tes

Haloo. Just wanna share my thoughts, actually. well see ya around. bubbye.